There is a lot of background information that we don't feel at liberty to discuss. But, our agent has confirmed what we feared. There is a very slim to no chance that we will be able to adopt this baby. We hope and pray for a miracle, a change of heart by the birthgiver (because it changed so rapidly from last week...).
There is a full nursery and a shower scheduled... To which one will have the door closed again for the time being and the other will be cancelled. Right now it looks like this is not our Talitha.
But we know that somehow this glorifies God. We keep thinking about our own spiritual adoption that was so much more costly and painful. God killed his own Son so that we might be called Children of God. Our Heavenly Father knows how we feel.
Romans 8:16-17 states "The Spirit himself bears witness with our spirit that we are children of God, and if children, then heirs—heirs of God and fellow heirs with Christ, provided we suffer with him in order that we may also be glorified with him."
Romans 8:31-32 "What then shall we say to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us? He who did not spare his own Son but gave him up for us all, how will he not also with him graciously give us all things?"
As for this earthly adoption, we are reminded now that this has been and will continue to be His adoption of our child. We may be the adoptive parents, but God is the One orchestrating it all. Our hope is in Him. We don't know the reason this is happening. We have no idea why. We don't even really know what to say. Except for this...He is our hope.
To everyone who is in this with us, we covet your prayers and love you all more as you walk this path with us.
My heart aches for you all. Praying for the Lord to wrap His arms tightly around you.
ReplyDeletePraying for you.
ReplyDeleteHi Darbi, You don't me but I am friends with Michelle Eastman. She shared your post with me because I have gone through 2 failed adoptions and I want you to know that I am praying for you. The mixed emotions of honoring the Lord, bringing Him glory in every circumstance, while feeling confused, alone (even though you know you are not) and a deep hurt you have never felt before is a very difficult place to be in. It is a feeling that I can remember so vividly. But I am here as a testimony showing that God has a purpose for everything that happens and He WILL walk you through this. There are some scriptures, songs and quotes I would love to share with you if you are open to that. Please email me at christinapurtell@gmail.com. Please know that I am praying for you and your husband. May God bring you the peace that surpasses your understanding as you wait on Him for your child.
ReplyDeleteIn Christ's Love, Christina
Darbi & Robert, I am so sorry to hear about this coaster you guys are riding on. . . It is confusing! But at least we know the heart of God, don't we? And he brings each person, each child into our lives based on His divine will. There are no chances, no "I just ended up here." Just remember that God has matched you with some little girl out there....your little girl. Out of so many people out there in the world it's hard to imagine that one little person out there that you are meant to raise. I pray you guys have the strength to use this to strengthen others when they are weak. Where we would be without examples of those who were steadfast during trials?? We are praying for you guys and we all feel the pain of this, but we all share in the joy that we have a Father that loves us and wants to fulfill the desires of our heart.
ReplyDeleteJust happened upon your blog tonight and read this post -- praying peace on your family tonight.
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