A bright spot in the midst...

So, yesterday was interesting to say the least. Our week has been such a roller coaster of emotions to the point where we are in desperate need of a vacation. 

First bit of good news, the baby we just miscarried was not another Molar pregnancy. A quick recap our third miscarriage was a molar pregnancy. It's a pregnancy complication that basically has to be monitored to for 6 months to a year to make sure there aren't complications (like development of a manageable cancer). We will be waiting a few more weeks for the next set of test results.

Second bit of good news, is that we were able to go to the "V's" Dr. appointment yesterday. We were supposed to find out next week but for various reasons the Lord allowed us to find out this week. All along "V" and family said that it was a boy. So, we anticipated we were having a boy.... When the Dr. said "It's a girl" we were so surprised. We are having a baby girl! This is our Talitha (pronounced Ta-lee-tha).

I was sobbing so much so that "V's" mother asked me if I was ok. "V" was crying when we were out in the parking lot because this is hard for her too (please continue to pray for witnessing opportunities to her). This is a huge sacrifice. All I could do is hold her and just say "Thank you" which made her cry more. Her mom was appreciative and it's been good for all of them to see us so excited.

Compared to our ultrasound last week... seeing a baby alive is a miracle and such a reason to thank the Lord. She has 10 little fingers & little toes. She is an active little girl always doing somersaults! During the ultrasound she was waving hi to us. My favorite picture is the one where we can see her little face and her little nose (hoping to post that in later so check back soon). 

There are no words to describe what it means to be adopting our Talitha. It's more than having a baby girl. At some future point I hope to be better able to articulate this.

Emotionally this has been such a crazy week. There is a part of me that hasn't had a chance to grieve for my precious baby. There is another part of me that is elated about baby Talitha. These two sides conflict and to some degree I feel guilty over this tug of war. It's a lot to process. We are exhausted to be honest.

I do ask that you all continue to help me with our memorial project. Are there any lessons that the Lord has taught you through our trials? The Israelities often made memorials as a tribute to what God has done. It is our desire to do that as well. This will help us to honor our precious babies who have gone before us.

Our prayers are for our birthmother and family, Talitha's development, Dr. Van Zandt to have wisdom in managing our case, my continued recovery, and for us to have some rest.

You all are amazing. Thank you for showing us through this all that the Lord truly does work through the hands and feet of His church. We are amazed by your love.

With all my love (and Robert's too),
Darbi